- We got off the Titanic first.
- We can scare male bosses with the mysterious gynaecological disorder excuses.
- Taxis stop for us.
- We don't look like a frog in a blender when dancing.
- No fashion faux pas we make could ever rival the Speedo.
- We don't have to pass gas to amuse ourselves.
- If we forget to shave, no one has to know.
- We can congratulate our team-mate without ever touching her rear end.
- We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.
- We have the ability to dress ourselves.
- We can talk to the opposite sex without having to picture them naked
- If we marry someone 20 years younger, we are aware that we will look like an idiot.
- We will never regret piercing our ears
- There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.
- We can make comments about how silly men are in their presence because they aren't listening anyway.
Monday, February 05, 2007
#6-9
Why I'm happy to be a woman:
Happy Birthday to Me
1. It's my birthday today
2. I'm 21 now. Feeling old, but I have to be careful what crowd I'm in when I say that... yes, I know my entire life is ahead of me. I am still so young, yes.
3. I was feeling a little down, but things have picked up. Here is the story:
However, we both forgot that he has a lumber grading course tonight... until 9:00. No problem, I thought... he could come over after and we could just watch a flick on my widescreen monitor. I'll get some homework done, that way, and maybe make a shopping trip on my own to exchange a shirt, before he gets there. It would even kind of be a relief, to not take a whole night out the week before midterms (I'm just starting to feel stressed).
I was shocked and surprised when R said he probably wouldn't be coming over at all!!!! See, his reasoning was that we could postpone it, since he was really looking forward to going out with me (haha, role reversal! Usually that's me), and do it another night this week. But I didn't really understand that he meant to do it another night, and I nearly died at the prospect of not even SEEING my boyfriend, that lives on the same street as me, on the day of my birthday!! And it's not like I really saw much of him during my party. I was flitting between people, trying to make sure everyone was comfortable and not awkward. You know that pressure - "Does everybody here know at least somebody else they can talk to??"
So before I got bummed out, I called a good friend of mine on campus, to see if she had plans. Maybe she'd do homework with me, or watch some chick flick, or just go get dinner with me.
But no answer from her sent me into the depths of despair and loneliness.
I recovered decently when she phoned, saying she had ringette practice but she'd love to go get all-you-can-eat sushi after, with me and her bf (at like 9:30). So I was excited. Yaaaay, I found someone who could deal with my desperation! And now her practice is canceled, so she's gonna come shopping with me. I think that means no late-night sushi, but we'll go grab some food for dinner somewhere.
So I'm less depressed, particularly because I learned the essential fact that R wants to do something another night... it just takes me a while to recover when I was hoping to see him on my actual birthday. Cuz I don't need a whole extra night out... it might be more of a stress than a help.
Adjustments, right?
End of story.
3. Ed got me flowers yesterday, as he promised he would a month ago for my birthday, since I kept supplying him with painkillers from my ever-equipped purse.
4. R and his mom bought me a pile of wonderful scrapbooking stuff* from Costco. Wow, can you ever get a lot of stuff there for miles cheaper than any other place. I have more paper and ribbon and punches than I could ever need.
5. My bro and sis-in-law got me a shirt that didn't fit super well... so I exchanged it yesterday and got two shirts (one nice one and an undershirt for it) and a loonie back. I'm very happy with the fit and the dark green colour. Also with the loonie back. Also, it's a clothing line where I am a small... talk about an esteem-booster!!
6. My sister got me a shirt as well, that I have to exchange today. There are some shirts that are just not made for large boobs. Though the colour was beautiful, and the cut is nice on a hypothetical woman.
7. I'm looking forward to my invertebrate lab tomorrow.
8. I'm almost finished my three seasons of House. What am I going to waste my time with next?
9. I think this post is long enough. Time to get busy; I have class in 20 minutes anyways. I'll take a picture tonight of my shirt, if I can. I'm that pleased with it. And so cheap.
*Changed from "cheap" by boyfriend's request
2. I'm 21 now. Feeling old, but I have to be careful what crowd I'm in when I say that... yes, I know my entire life is ahead of me. I am still so young, yes.
3. I was feeling a little down, but things have picked up. Here is the story:
- I had a great weekend; went home to Langley
- I had a cold, felt sick all day Thursday but though I felt better Friday, my throat was raspy
- Since I sang all Friday night at a worship leader's meeting...
- ...and then at practice for 2 hours on Saturday afternoon...
- ...and then screamed my lungs literally out while bowling Saturday night...
- ...I have no voice left. Though it's better today. Yesterday there was nuthin'. And so, while leading worship, I had to restrict myself to only playing the keyboard and not singing. At all. It's so hard for me not to sing, but it was at the point of pain. Which implied damage to my pipes. Something I don't want to happen.
- My parents hosted a food party at my house Saturday, a drop-in essentially for everybody. Some people were greatly missed, either couldn't make it or had to drop out last minute, but I got to hang out with some great old friends that I never see, some great friends' parents, and my sister, brother, and sister-in-law.
- Then Sunday, since I was at church essentially from 7 until 12:30, I was exhausted. Wiped out completely; slept through half the superbowl (got made fun of by R's family, of course). My dad even came to R's house to watch it on the big screen.
- Ate lots of food.
- Got more cake and more gifts, even though nobody was supposed to get me anything...
- So what could be disappointing, you say??
However, we both forgot that he has a lumber grading course tonight... until 9:00. No problem, I thought... he could come over after and we could just watch a flick on my widescreen monitor. I'll get some homework done, that way, and maybe make a shopping trip on my own to exchange a shirt, before he gets there. It would even kind of be a relief, to not take a whole night out the week before midterms (I'm just starting to feel stressed).
I was shocked and surprised when R said he probably wouldn't be coming over at all!!!! See, his reasoning was that we could postpone it, since he was really looking forward to going out with me (haha, role reversal! Usually that's me), and do it another night this week. But I didn't really understand that he meant to do it another night, and I nearly died at the prospect of not even SEEING my boyfriend, that lives on the same street as me, on the day of my birthday!! And it's not like I really saw much of him during my party. I was flitting between people, trying to make sure everyone was comfortable and not awkward. You know that pressure - "Does everybody here know at least somebody else they can talk to??"
So before I got bummed out, I called a good friend of mine on campus, to see if she had plans. Maybe she'd do homework with me, or watch some chick flick, or just go get dinner with me.
But no answer from her sent me into the depths of despair and loneliness.
I recovered decently when she phoned, saying she had ringette practice but she'd love to go get all-you-can-eat sushi after, with me and her bf (at like 9:30). So I was excited. Yaaaay, I found someone who could deal with my desperation! And now her practice is canceled, so she's gonna come shopping with me. I think that means no late-night sushi, but we'll go grab some food for dinner somewhere.
So I'm less depressed, particularly because I learned the essential fact that R wants to do something another night... it just takes me a while to recover when I was hoping to see him on my actual birthday. Cuz I don't need a whole extra night out... it might be more of a stress than a help.
Adjustments, right?
End of story.
3. Ed got me flowers yesterday, as he promised he would a month ago for my birthday, since I kept supplying him with painkillers from my ever-equipped purse.
4. R and his mom bought me a pile of wonderful scrapbooking stuff* from Costco. Wow, can you ever get a lot of stuff there for miles cheaper than any other place. I have more paper and ribbon and punches than I could ever need.
5. My bro and sis-in-law got me a shirt that didn't fit super well... so I exchanged it yesterday and got two shirts (one nice one and an undershirt for it) and a loonie back. I'm very happy with the fit and the dark green colour. Also with the loonie back. Also, it's a clothing line where I am a small... talk about an esteem-booster!!
6. My sister got me a shirt as well, that I have to exchange today. There are some shirts that are just not made for large boobs. Though the colour was beautiful, and the cut is nice on a hypothetical woman.
7. I'm looking forward to my invertebrate lab tomorrow.
8. I'm almost finished my three seasons of House. What am I going to waste my time with next?
9. I think this post is long enough. Time to get busy; I have class in 20 minutes anyways. I'll take a picture tonight of my shirt, if I can. I'm that pleased with it. And so cheap.
*Changed from "cheap" by boyfriend's request
Monday, January 29, 2007
Put it to rest
Don't you hate when someone brings something up that you thought was long over with? I think an issue has been finally buried, and dealt with a million times, and somehow there's another layer of depth in this other person's brain. Hello! Don't fabricate something that isn't there!! The issue is finished, over, and there is nothing more that needs to be done. It has been finalized too many times to count.
Yarr.
Also, it's almost my birthday! I'm going to be legal in the states... wonderful, since I visit the states so often.
My old band is playing a reunion show this week, but I can't be there. Sucky; it's on a thursday night, but I have an organic lab until 5 that evening. Labs are not skippable - and even if they were, there's not really any way for me to get back up here for Friday morning. So I'm missing out on the music-making. And feeling left out. Also I just really miss playing that music.
I'm also feeling bored; I don't have enough to do. R has 7 classes (smart thinkin, buddy), with 5 labs integrated in there. He has homework constantly, poor dude. I'm trying to make as positive an environment as possible for him to work... but that usually discludes me. And I only have 4.5 classes, so I am not swimming in stress as I usually am. I've been watching House... but that's going to run out, eventually. I'm just looking forward to the time a few weeks from now when I'm stressing about midterms and actually motivated to do studying other than the few menial assignments. Assignments motivate me to work, "Study this for next month" does not motivate me at all. When midterms are approaching, I'll have the motivation to sit for hours and do practice problems and study concepts and memorize equation derivations.
This is the first semester I've had in a while that I've actually had any math to do, at all. Last semester I had no math whatsoever - organic chemistry, cell biology, and natural disasters didn't have any quantitative problems. It's nice for a change to have physical chem and biochem with actual numbers, where answers are right or wrong. I missed that! It's been weird to need a calculator again. I had to buy a specific one from the bookstore (wow, UBC gets your money through everything). Unit conversions, and anal assignment-writing, where I get all my numbers all nice and even.... yesssss. I am a geek.
Gonna get moving to biochem soon. I had a nice chill Monday morning... class at 8 only for an hour. Got home, showered, had a quiet time, cleaned up the unit a bit. Lunch. Diatonic Harmony class (YES! Music!) at 1, an hour break until my next class (Intro to Biochem) at 3. I have so many nice spaces, it's unreal. And now that I live so close, I can go home and sleep again, if I want, or get my assignments done for the later classes. I always have at least 4 hours of break between my first and 2nd classes. Unreal.
Peace out.
Yarr.
Also, it's almost my birthday! I'm going to be legal in the states... wonderful, since I visit the states so often.
My old band is playing a reunion show this week, but I can't be there. Sucky; it's on a thursday night, but I have an organic lab until 5 that evening. Labs are not skippable - and even if they were, there's not really any way for me to get back up here for Friday morning. So I'm missing out on the music-making. And feeling left out. Also I just really miss playing that music.
I'm also feeling bored; I don't have enough to do. R has 7 classes (smart thinkin, buddy), with 5 labs integrated in there. He has homework constantly, poor dude. I'm trying to make as positive an environment as possible for him to work... but that usually discludes me. And I only have 4.5 classes, so I am not swimming in stress as I usually am. I've been watching House... but that's going to run out, eventually. I'm just looking forward to the time a few weeks from now when I'm stressing about midterms and actually motivated to do studying other than the few menial assignments. Assignments motivate me to work, "Study this for next month" does not motivate me at all. When midterms are approaching, I'll have the motivation to sit for hours and do practice problems and study concepts and memorize equation derivations.
This is the first semester I've had in a while that I've actually had any math to do, at all. Last semester I had no math whatsoever - organic chemistry, cell biology, and natural disasters didn't have any quantitative problems. It's nice for a change to have physical chem and biochem with actual numbers, where answers are right or wrong. I missed that! It's been weird to need a calculator again. I had to buy a specific one from the bookstore (wow, UBC gets your money through everything). Unit conversions, and anal assignment-writing, where I get all my numbers all nice and even.... yesssss. I am a geek.
Gonna get moving to biochem soon. I had a nice chill Monday morning... class at 8 only for an hour. Got home, showered, had a quiet time, cleaned up the unit a bit. Lunch. Diatonic Harmony class (YES! Music!) at 1, an hour break until my next class (Intro to Biochem) at 3. I have so many nice spaces, it's unreal. And now that I live so close, I can go home and sleep again, if I want, or get my assignments done for the later classes. I always have at least 4 hours of break between my first and 2nd classes. Unreal.
Peace out.
Monday, January 22, 2007
Rainy days at UBC
1) Make sure you use an umbrella. Or at least ridiculously-coloured gum boots.
2) Enjoy the feeling of the massive wet patch on each of your thighs (due to the up and forward motions of walking).
3) Do step in every puddle. Make sure your jeans are wet right up to your knees.
4) If you're wearing runners, make sure they have some decent-sized holes in them. Preferably on both sides, close to the sole so the water doesn't have to be deep.
5) Do walk very very very slowly, in double file, with large umbrellas, so that people in a hurry can't get past you.
6) Don't bother lifting your umbrellas, ever, so that they always clash with the space for other people's umbrellas.
7) Since UBC is also known as The Umbrella Graveyard*, do drop your broken and otherwise useless umbrella wherever you may fancy. By all means, do NOT wait to find a garbage can or any other waste receptacle.
8) Do take a sweet picture of the view from your window. Do make sure there's a car while you're taking it so that your amazing camera (or rather, your boyfriend's camera) gets all the light that passes through, headlights to taillights, with the car entirely past the intersection and not in the picture.
*Term used with permission.
2) Enjoy the feeling of the massive wet patch on each of your thighs (due to the up and forward motions of walking).
3) Do step in every puddle. Make sure your jeans are wet right up to your knees.
4) If you're wearing runners, make sure they have some decent-sized holes in them. Preferably on both sides, close to the sole so the water doesn't have to be deep.
5) Do walk very very very slowly, in double file, with large umbrellas, so that people in a hurry can't get past you.
6) Don't bother lifting your umbrellas, ever, so that they always clash with the space for other people's umbrellas.
7) Since UBC is also known as The Umbrella Graveyard*, do drop your broken and otherwise useless umbrella wherever you may fancy. By all means, do NOT wait to find a garbage can or any other waste receptacle.
8) Do take a sweet picture of the view from your window. Do make sure there's a car while you're taking it so that your amazing camera (or rather, your boyfriend's camera) gets all the light that passes through, headlights to taillights, with the car entirely past the intersection and not in the picture.
*Term used with permission.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
sushi!
Going to an all-you-can-eat place tonight.. I think it's going to be a weekly tradition. It's SO good.
I had something I wanted to say just shortly, but I completely forget what it was. Maybe I'll remember by tomorrow. Peace.
I had something I wanted to say just shortly, but I completely forget what it was. Maybe I'll remember by tomorrow. Peace.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
List time!
1) I love lists
2) I'm watching House right now
3) My house kind of smells like pot, due to the forest beside my window
4) Yet I have to keep the window open because my roommates keep the house really warm
5) I went to an info session tonight about research opportunities for undergrads
6) I've barely seen R all day... just made him a tuna sandwich for lunch, but he had to leave early
7) I have the best boyfriend ever. We had the best talk yesterday and I am so much happier about many things
8) I really really really really miss music
9) I also would like to find time to scrapbook again, but that would entail finding a place to develop my pictures. Too much effort and not enough money lying around
10) I need groceries
11) I had an invertebrate lab today and I got to play with sea anemones! The BEST ever. I tried to feed some but they had already been fed by a billion students, so they were full
12) I want to take a trip to the sunshine coast, with R, since it's winter. Diversity is amazing right now, and he would love to go creature-searching with me
13) I remember 2 recent "Friday the 13th"s
14) I'm tired. Yay for 8 a.m. classes every day. I feel like a first year still... 2 years later
15) My mom has been sending me e-mails, and it's been a really nice surprise. Makes me feel loved by the ones I left at home
16) I wish I had a nice camera. A digital SLR. Would be amazing.
17) On to better things... my pillow!
2) I'm watching House right now
3) My house kind of smells like pot, due to the forest beside my window
4) Yet I have to keep the window open because my roommates keep the house really warm
5) I went to an info session tonight about research opportunities for undergrads
6) I've barely seen R all day... just made him a tuna sandwich for lunch, but he had to leave early
7) I have the best boyfriend ever. We had the best talk yesterday and I am so much happier about many things
8) I really really really really miss music
9) I also would like to find time to scrapbook again, but that would entail finding a place to develop my pictures. Too much effort and not enough money lying around
10) I need groceries
11) I had an invertebrate lab today and I got to play with sea anemones! The BEST ever. I tried to feed some but they had already been fed by a billion students, so they were full
12) I want to take a trip to the sunshine coast, with R, since it's winter. Diversity is amazing right now, and he would love to go creature-searching with me
13) I remember 2 recent "Friday the 13th"s
14) I'm tired. Yay for 8 a.m. classes every day. I feel like a first year still... 2 years later
15) My mom has been sending me e-mails, and it's been a really nice surprise. Makes me feel loved by the ones I left at home
16) I wish I had a nice camera. A digital SLR. Would be amazing.
17) On to better things... my pillow!
Monday, January 15, 2007
From the new place
It has been really really cold. I watched this one pigeon for like 10 minutes and he didn't pop his head out of his warm cocoon the entire time. We're really used to putting on gloves/toques/scarves, and there's ice everywhere. Even the snow isn't melting.
I've used R's camera a bit, since mine's gone. My family got a beautiful point-and-shoot for Christmas. It was really cheap - a really good deal for 6 mp.
I'm watching House right now. I like this show. I like it a lot. And, I can watch it while I type because of my beautiful new monitor. R got it for me for Christmas, and it's widescreen. I am very spoiled.
And two days ago R bought himself a laptop. His Dell was at the end of its lifetime, and this toshiba is wonderful. It boots up in less than 45 minutes - a luxury. It's also widescreen. He was thinking about getting a mac (or, I was thinking he should get one) , but a PC is going to be better for him and his needs. So he's really happy.
So I'm on campus! I got a place with three girls in a condo-style housing unit. I'm really happy. It's warm here, and my internet works perfectly - both through the wall and wirelessly. This proves that it was not my PC sucking at my last place, it was definitely because they bought a cheap router. Cheap Asians (if I may be so racist). It's also cheaper to live here.
And it's amazing how much time I save not traveling. I've only had to take the bus a couple times, for shopping. I have a class at 8 a.m. every day, but after that hour or hour and a half, I have at least a 4-hour break. It's amazingly efficient to come home, do some cleaning, and get crap done. That just doesn't happen when I'm stuck at school, with a limited number of books, and a limited number of places to go.
I passed organic chemistry! That in itself is a triumph. Best C+ of my life. Only C+ ever, but also the best. I'm taking the lab for it this semester, but it should be much easier.
There are so many beautiful baby pictures around on all your blogs, people - they are beautiful but they kick my ovaries into overdrive. Do me a favour and keep the pictures down until I grow up and it's somewhat reasonable to have a kid. Maybe I'll live in my own baby-less world and try and forget they exist until I know it's not a ridiculous idea. Course I might as well go blind. :o)
Been feeling a little on the failing side about some things. I feel like I've been a Christian for so long, and there are some things I should have figured out by now and be somewhat consistent on. Like, when I feel like a failure over little things, I should have a solid enough foundation in knowing my identity and status in him, that I should be able to pick up where I left off. Persistence. Since when did I lose my stubborn will? I'm so frustrated that I give up so easily and let such little things keep me from coming back right away. It's 'cause I keep feeling so unworthy to return when I failed on something so controllable. But as R reminds me, when I start "feeling worthy," I cross the line into self-righteousness. And I know that. Which is why my knowledge should kick in - of course I'm not worthy, but that's the beauty of it. Why can't I embrace that beauty?
Working on it. I think he's telling me (actually, reminding me, since it doesn't get through my thick head) that it's not my job to struggle. I take it upon myself and just struggle away, but I need to leave it up to him.
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Finished
So my internet connection is a little wonky... we'll see how things go.
It's Saturday. I'm really really enjoying Saturdays now that I don't work. Slept in ... a lot... and R and I went to Lee Valley Hardware to pick up some stuff. Also got groceries, because he wants tortillas for dinner :) The one thing I can cook; until today I didn't know it was a success with him. But he quickly followed up his compliment with, "Nobody could screw up tortillas..." I guess he doesn't know me too well. I could.
So he fell asleep as soon as we got back (it was a lot of bus riding and standing around... poor campus boy isn't used to walking so much!! Heh heh heh. I'm going to get in trouble for this one). I cleaned up the place a bit, now I'm bored. My internet is too sketchy to try and do my online assignments - more frustration than progress. So yes, I'm going to go open a textbook. Though I'm debating on whether I should start dinner. As soon as he wakes up he's going to be ravenous.
We went to Body Worlds last night. It was quite interesting; we went with that couple of friends out for Mexican food and then to see the bodies. Fascinating stuff, but I don't think I'd pay $17 for it again.
Here's a picture for no reason. This is us on the 39th floor of a hotel (visiting my parents... don't worry, it wasn't our room!) overlooking Vancouver. We went on a date to celebrate a year and a half of dating. Congrats to us. Coming up on a year and 8 months soon. Not that I'm counting.
It's Saturday. I'm really really enjoying Saturdays now that I don't work. Slept in ... a lot... and R and I went to Lee Valley Hardware to pick up some stuff. Also got groceries, because he wants tortillas for dinner :) The one thing I can cook; until today I didn't know it was a success with him. But he quickly followed up his compliment with, "Nobody could screw up tortillas..." I guess he doesn't know me too well. I could.
So he fell asleep as soon as we got back (it was a lot of bus riding and standing around... poor campus boy isn't used to walking so much!! Heh heh heh. I'm going to get in trouble for this one). I cleaned up the place a bit, now I'm bored. My internet is too sketchy to try and do my online assignments - more frustration than progress. So yes, I'm going to go open a textbook. Though I'm debating on whether I should start dinner. As soon as he wakes up he's going to be ravenous.
We went to Body Worlds last night. It was quite interesting; we went with that couple of friends out for Mexican food and then to see the bodies. Fascinating stuff, but I don't think I'd pay $17 for it again.
Here's a picture for no reason. This is us on the 39th floor of a hotel (visiting my parents... don't worry, it wasn't our room!) overlooking Vancouver. We went on a date to celebrate a year and a half of dating. Congrats to us. Coming up on a year and 8 months soon. Not that I'm counting.
Friday, December 01, 2006
Last day of classes
Thank the Lord for small blessings.
I need a coffee.
I might go with a bunch of friends to Body World today.
I'm going to see all sorts of plasticized bodies.
Maybe it'll creep me out...
...but probably not, 'cause I love stuff like that.
And we're gonna go out for dinner.
But I'm feeling like I need to not spend any money.
And Body World costs $17 ... that's a lot of smackaroos.
That I could be spending on dinner.
So somehow I want to not go out for dinner.
But these friends seem like they want to do something with us.
And dinner is usually part of our evenings together.
Which is totally cool, and they're cool.
I just feel like my funds are running low, with Christmas approaching.
I've been working on organic chemistry today.
I came to one class - a tutorial - at 9 am.
It was only an hour.
Then I went and bought R some bread to bring to his place for lunch.
But I came to the computer lab until he is done class.
And worked on Organic Chemistry that Sucks More Than Anything.
And it's an hour after his class was supposed to end and he hasn't called me yet.
Which sucks more today cuz we had a great time last night (sarcasm).
We went to the Christmas banquet.
And had a nice fight after.
Or more like an emotional breakdown on my part,
Where he is not quite sure how to react.
And I end up getting mad at the way he does or doesn't react.
Or something like that.
Generally me getting upset over many things, justified and not justified.
The banquet was fun; food was good.
But it also cost money.
Hence me not wanting to go out for dinner again.
Also, I was planning on paying for dinner next time his parents took us to White Spot.
They take us there all the time
and make cracks about us not paying
and it's finally gotten to me.
I determined last time that the next time we went,
as long as it was just the immediate family,
I was going to sneak the bill and Rich and I would split it after.
Rich agreed very reluctantly, but I'll pay for it if he won't.
I know once won't mean much to them,
and they don't actually care - it's their choice to take us out all the time,
But I feel bad.
I eat their food all the time.
And yes, I'm a starving student,
which is their rationale,
but they really take us out a lot.
They're planning to come visit us Sunday and take us out,
which adds to my monetary stress of today.
I need some groceries too,
But I think I'll just stay at home tomorrow and eat like, packaged soups
or Kraft Dinner
all the packaged food I have stocked up for emergencies but don't actually ever eat.
So I'm going to keep writing until he calls, because I am tired of chemistry.
And I'd rather do it later.
But be warned,
because I can type quickly
And I have many thoughts.
So unless he calls soon
there will be a large large number of words in the post.
Oh yeah, I left my camera on a bus.
It's lost forever; someone lifted it I'm sure.
It was sucky, because I was carrying too many things;
I was bringing R's laundry (freshly cleaned and folded c/o Tricia Enterprises) in a duffel bag
Back to school for him.
And my backpack.
And I had my camera in my backpack because I had been stuck without it for the whole snowstorm.
But I went a different direction on my street than usual,
and a row of beautiful trees were all broken to pieces
massive branches strewn all over the road,
covered in snow.
The trees looked naked enough without their leaves,
but now nearly every limb ends in a jagged light streak of brokenness
Poor trees.
They were my favourite thing about the street, and so beautiful in the summer/fall.
So I took my camera out and took some pictures, which sucked anyway.
And I looped the camera case around my arm instead of putting it back in my bag so that I could walk and take more pictures if necessary.
But I got to the bus stop, which some goof parked his car in front of,
so I ran to the next one so the bus wouldn't have any excuse to pass by me.
Barely got on the bus
and my phone rang.
So I sit down, answer the phone.
Somehow I must have unlooped the camera case from my arm.
Because when I got off to transfer,
I did the unconscious "do I have everything" check
but since I now was carrying a phone in my hand,
I didn't feel like anything was missing (still 3 items).
Funny how my brain works like that.
So I realized as soon as the bus pulled away,
and I called translink. It took forever to get through, but I finally talked to someone.
She said there's no way they can get ahold of the individual bus drivers right then; it was a 1.5 hour wait just to connect to their radios or something.
Because of poor stressed translink's inadequate preparation for a little snow.
But anyway
She said to call lost property.
And I did, and nothing's there.
So the driver took it, or someone else.
What happened to honesty in the world?
Of course it's completely my fault for leaving it on there,
but what happened to people returning things? I mean, they don't want my pictures of trees, and from Halloween. I want those pictures.
So that was lame and embarrassing and it's pretty much gone forever.
Gives me an excuse to buy a new one,
but again with my lack of monetary options.
And it's Christmas soon, and I wanted pictures from Christmas.
*sigh*.
So he hasn't called me yet. I think he got lost.
Actually, I think his phone is off (because I just got the answering machine).
He is very good at leaving his phone off at the right times.
And... last night I was debating coming to school at all.
So maybe he thinks I didn't... even though I concluded that I would.
That's enough moaning about nothing.
I think it's time I find something constructive to do.
Or to drink.
Like a coffee.
I need a coffee.
I might go with a bunch of friends to Body World today.
I'm going to see all sorts of plasticized bodies.
Maybe it'll creep me out...
...but probably not, 'cause I love stuff like that.
And we're gonna go out for dinner.
But I'm feeling like I need to not spend any money.
And Body World costs $17 ... that's a lot of smackaroos.
That I could be spending on dinner.
So somehow I want to not go out for dinner.
But these friends seem like they want to do something with us.
And dinner is usually part of our evenings together.
Which is totally cool, and they're cool.
I just feel like my funds are running low, with Christmas approaching.
I've been working on organic chemistry today.
I came to one class - a tutorial - at 9 am.
It was only an hour.
Then I went and bought R some bread to bring to his place for lunch.
But I came to the computer lab until he is done class.
And worked on Organic Chemistry that Sucks More Than Anything.
And it's an hour after his class was supposed to end and he hasn't called me yet.
Which sucks more today cuz we had a great time last night (sarcasm).
We went to the Christmas banquet.
And had a nice fight after.
Or more like an emotional breakdown on my part,
Where he is not quite sure how to react.
And I end up getting mad at the way he does or doesn't react.
Or something like that.
Generally me getting upset over many things, justified and not justified.
The banquet was fun; food was good.
But it also cost money.
Hence me not wanting to go out for dinner again.
Also, I was planning on paying for dinner next time his parents took us to White Spot.
They take us there all the time
and make cracks about us not paying
and it's finally gotten to me.
I determined last time that the next time we went,
as long as it was just the immediate family,
I was going to sneak the bill and Rich and I would split it after.
Rich agreed very reluctantly, but I'll pay for it if he won't.
I know once won't mean much to them,
and they don't actually care - it's their choice to take us out all the time,
But I feel bad.
I eat their food all the time.
And yes, I'm a starving student,
which is their rationale,
but they really take us out a lot.
They're planning to come visit us Sunday and take us out,
which adds to my monetary stress of today.
I need some groceries too,
But I think I'll just stay at home tomorrow and eat like, packaged soups
or Kraft Dinner
all the packaged food I have stocked up for emergencies but don't actually ever eat.
So I'm going to keep writing until he calls, because I am tired of chemistry.
And I'd rather do it later.
But be warned,
because I can type quickly
And I have many thoughts.
So unless he calls soon
there will be a large large number of words in the post.
Oh yeah, I left my camera on a bus.
It's lost forever; someone lifted it I'm sure.
It was sucky, because I was carrying too many things;
I was bringing R's laundry (freshly cleaned and folded c/o Tricia Enterprises) in a duffel bag
Back to school for him.
And my backpack.
And I had my camera in my backpack because I had been stuck without it for the whole snowstorm.
But I went a different direction on my street than usual,
and a row of beautiful trees were all broken to pieces
massive branches strewn all over the road,
covered in snow.
The trees looked naked enough without their leaves,
but now nearly every limb ends in a jagged light streak of brokenness
Poor trees.
They were my favourite thing about the street, and so beautiful in the summer/fall.
So I took my camera out and took some pictures, which sucked anyway.
And I looped the camera case around my arm instead of putting it back in my bag so that I could walk and take more pictures if necessary.
But I got to the bus stop, which some goof parked his car in front of,
so I ran to the next one so the bus wouldn't have any excuse to pass by me.
Barely got on the bus
and my phone rang.
So I sit down, answer the phone.
Somehow I must have unlooped the camera case from my arm.
Because when I got off to transfer,
I did the unconscious "do I have everything" check
but since I now was carrying a phone in my hand,
I didn't feel like anything was missing (still 3 items).
Funny how my brain works like that.
So I realized as soon as the bus pulled away,
and I called translink. It took forever to get through, but I finally talked to someone.
She said there's no way they can get ahold of the individual bus drivers right then; it was a 1.5 hour wait just to connect to their radios or something.
Because of poor stressed translink's inadequate preparation for a little snow.
But anyway
She said to call lost property.
And I did, and nothing's there.
So the driver took it, or someone else.
What happened to honesty in the world?
Of course it's completely my fault for leaving it on there,
but what happened to people returning things? I mean, they don't want my pictures of trees, and from Halloween. I want those pictures.
So that was lame and embarrassing and it's pretty much gone forever.
Gives me an excuse to buy a new one,
but again with my lack of monetary options.
And it's Christmas soon, and I wanted pictures from Christmas.
*sigh*.
So he hasn't called me yet. I think he got lost.
Actually, I think his phone is off (because I just got the answering machine).
He is very good at leaving his phone off at the right times.
And... last night I was debating coming to school at all.
So maybe he thinks I didn't... even though I concluded that I would.
That's enough moaning about nothing.
I think it's time I find something constructive to do.
Or to drink.
Like a coffee.
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
I'm going to try and get home today
Do you ever have one of those moments when you almost forget where you are? You see something or someone that reminds you of a different time and place, and you have to give your head a shake to come to grips with what's around you. I passed by a stand of trees today on campus that were not particularly eye-catching. There are many pretty trees here, and the snow is garnishing everything frostily. It adds a nice spice to the uncommon wintry scene. But these trees I passed were tall cedars, and they were clustered close together with the snow in drifts between them. The way they were close, and the way their branches were loaded and white, brought back a massively vivid picture of northern BC, where I was born. I don't have many memories from my small hometown, but today I saw a piece of that town on my campus. It was as if I turned a corner and stepped into an entirely different time. Everything was white and still and silent. Until I blinked.
Things are pretty icy, and I have my core group tonight (Bible study). I have to go because we're doing a secret Santa exchange, but I want to get home tonight - been stuck on campus for too long without my camera. So it looks like I'll be braving the icy bus routes later, in the dark. I would have wanted to go earlier, but c'est la vie. I guess if things are too bad or snowy I can stay another night. School's wrapping up slowly but surely. I can't wait to be done.
When I have my camera, look out! Pictures will be posted. There are so many beautiful streets and trees - Langley gets like this sometimes, but never Vancouver. It's been a good ten years since I remember more than an inch or two.
Things are pretty icy, and I have my core group tonight (Bible study). I have to go because we're doing a secret Santa exchange, but I want to get home tonight - been stuck on campus for too long without my camera. So it looks like I'll be braving the icy bus routes later, in the dark. I would have wanted to go earlier, but c'est la vie. I guess if things are too bad or snowy I can stay another night. School's wrapping up slowly but surely. I can't wait to be done.
When I have my camera, look out! Pictures will be posted. There are so many beautiful streets and trees - Langley gets like this sometimes, but never Vancouver. It's been a good ten years since I remember more than an inch or two.
SNOW DAY!!
I haven't had a snow day I've remembered in forever. I love that the lower mainland gets immobilized by a hint of snow. Well, it wasn't a hint everywhere... but Vancouver wasn't hit too hard. Most schools were open - the only reason we closed was because we had a power outage. I came to campus Sunday night, figuring that if things did keep getting worse, I'd rather get snowed in on campus than at my place. Buses are ridiculous; most routes are closed since parts of the main roads have been closed. There is one point that buses will venture to campus, and that is at the northern gates, a very very very long walk from anywhere. Also the opposite side of campus from my house.
So I'm stuck here; we had an in day. There were many people playing trivial pursuit, as their papers were all on computers and, being electricity-dependent students, there weren't many of us that had any work we COULD do. I did, so I worked a bit on O-chem. It was a little cold, but we had blankets and the power came on around 3 in the afternoon. Then we had coffee and enjoyed our day off.
I only missed one class, but there was a quiz. So ... I would much rather miss a day like tomorrow, when I have almost all of my classes. My only chance is if somehow the snow melts a bit, and then freezes with the forecasted temperatures. It's supposed to be very cold, so as much as I want to wish everyone in the lower mainland safety, I hope that the entire translink system is shut down. That is the only way my stingy school will cancel classes, unless we lose power again. Of course, it's probably bad to want to miss my classes tomorrow... we only have a week left and they're not easy. But I can't help it. It's Christmas time, and I want to enjoy some snow and relax with a holiday smile. Forget school. It's all about the love.
So I'm stuck here; we had an in day. There were many people playing trivial pursuit, as their papers were all on computers and, being electricity-dependent students, there weren't many of us that had any work we COULD do. I did, so I worked a bit on O-chem. It was a little cold, but we had blankets and the power came on around 3 in the afternoon. Then we had coffee and enjoyed our day off.
I only missed one class, but there was a quiz. So ... I would much rather miss a day like tomorrow, when I have almost all of my classes. My only chance is if somehow the snow melts a bit, and then freezes with the forecasted temperatures. It's supposed to be very cold, so as much as I want to wish everyone in the lower mainland safety, I hope that the entire translink system is shut down. That is the only way my stingy school will cancel classes, unless we lose power again. Of course, it's probably bad to want to miss my classes tomorrow... we only have a week left and they're not easy. But I can't help it. It's Christmas time, and I want to enjoy some snow and relax with a holiday smile. Forget school. It's all about the love.
The view from our friend's building on the 15th floor of the tower.
Saturday, November 25, 2006
I'm running out of coffee beans
So I was totally gonna cheat, honestly... I was going to write like three posts and date and time them as to when I originally wanted to write about them. But I can't do it; and by now those events have passed so much that I probably only have a sentence each about everything.
I got poisoned by the water last week. I woke up Thursday morning after a crappy, stomachache-y night, and I puked up anything I might have eaten (I had drunk/drank/drinked much water to try and calm my unsettled stomach, figuring that water was one thing my body couldn't rebel against). I still had to get to my 8 am class to hand in an assignment, but then I went home and slept all day. And then I woke up and heard about the warning. R had told me, as any good caretaker or mother would say, "Drink lots of water/fluids, and sleep." So he found out about this water warning and panicked, figuring he had helped me to poison myself even further. But really I didnt even listen to that part of his advice; I just slept. It was a nice sleep, but not a lot of homework got done that day.
Then the next night, I went out with the girls from my CORE and watched PRIDE AND PREJUDICE!! Yaaah the old version with the wonderful Colin Firth. Unfortunately, it was 5 hours, a fact that I had forgotten. Me in my weakened no-solid-food-yet state, had trouble stayin awake. But I managed because of the amazing Austen plot and the Firth face.
This week there's a Christmas banquet that R has graciously agreed to attend with me; even though it is semi-formal. Yesss!! A reason to wear a dress and finally look girly for once, in between the sweat pants and the no makeup ever and the glasses every day. I'm proud of him for going to hang out with a bunch of girls he doesn't know. He always surprises me, pleasantly, cuz I asked with no hope whatsoever. I tend to underestimate his desire to be with me, which is AWESOME. I have the best boyfriend ever. Things are looking up very much.
And! Probably the best part of my week... yesterday a friend took me to a specialty bra store in Van that has real sizes of bras for real people. I have this problem, that I need a decent-sized cup but they don't supply it very often in a band size small enough for me... a 32, to be exact. And I went to a place to get fitted, and I got fitted well - with a $115 item. I can't spend that on a bra that I wear under my shirt, even if my shirts look better because of it.
So my friend with the same issue found this place where they're nice and cheaper, but still quality. And now I have an amazing proper fit - you have no idea. No times during the day where I have to pull anything up or push anything back in, and it just holds me up nicer, even making them look smaller and making me look thinner and my back doesn't hurt so bad and I even found out that in the summer they carry swimsuits and then maybe I can get a halter top that won't kill my neck or even just something that I can wear half-modestly that actually looks not like a granny bathing suit and I love run-on sentences and I'm sorry for the very personal nature of this paragraph but you have NO IDEA how much happier I am! Unless of course you have the same problem, in which case I would recommend this store - couldn't find it on the net, so you won't have any luck either unless you have a lot more googling skill than I do. It's called Change, and it is a tiny place on W Broadway at Macdonald, and it's the only place I've found that has many styles that pair E or F cups with band sizes smaller than 38 or 40 inches. I'm not huge around; my ribcage is actually small. Which encourages me, in the middle of winter when all I've been doing is eating. I feel much more confident. And more pain-free and less like I'm gonna get caught in the act of pulling up my bra in a very unladylike way.
And now I have something proper to wear under the dress for the banquet. Yessss.
Gotta run; I'm at home after my dad's jazz band played a coffeeshop concert for their cd release party tonight. Now my sister and her friend have arrived and I want to see her and chat. So later.
**Added later: At least because of my sickness I got out of my regular coffee-every-morning rut. And now I don't get headaches later in the day if I haven't had a coffee in the morning. So I'm going to try and keep the morning coffees down... only for treats. Especially because they prolly make me fatter. This will also be good because I'm runnin out of the beans I won. And I'm too cheap to buy good ones like the ones I'm used to now**
I got poisoned by the water last week. I woke up Thursday morning after a crappy, stomachache-y night, and I puked up anything I might have eaten (I had drunk/drank/drinked much water to try and calm my unsettled stomach, figuring that water was one thing my body couldn't rebel against). I still had to get to my 8 am class to hand in an assignment, but then I went home and slept all day. And then I woke up and heard about the warning. R had told me, as any good caretaker or mother would say, "Drink lots of water/fluids, and sleep." So he found out about this water warning and panicked, figuring he had helped me to poison myself even further. But really I didnt even listen to that part of his advice; I just slept. It was a nice sleep, but not a lot of homework got done that day.
Then the next night, I went out with the girls from my CORE and watched PRIDE AND PREJUDICE!! Yaaah the old version with the wonderful Colin Firth. Unfortunately, it was 5 hours, a fact that I had forgotten. Me in my weakened no-solid-food-yet state, had trouble stayin awake. But I managed because of the amazing Austen plot and the Firth face.
This week there's a Christmas banquet that R has graciously agreed to attend with me; even though it is semi-formal. Yesss!! A reason to wear a dress and finally look girly for once, in between the sweat pants and the no makeup ever and the glasses every day. I'm proud of him for going to hang out with a bunch of girls he doesn't know. He always surprises me, pleasantly, cuz I asked with no hope whatsoever. I tend to underestimate his desire to be with me, which is AWESOME. I have the best boyfriend ever. Things are looking up very much.
And! Probably the best part of my week... yesterday a friend took me to a specialty bra store in Van that has real sizes of bras for real people. I have this problem, that I need a decent-sized cup but they don't supply it very often in a band size small enough for me... a 32, to be exact. And I went to a place to get fitted, and I got fitted well - with a $115 item. I can't spend that on a bra that I wear under my shirt, even if my shirts look better because of it.
So my friend with the same issue found this place where they're nice and cheaper, but still quality. And now I have an amazing proper fit - you have no idea. No times during the day where I have to pull anything up or push anything back in, and it just holds me up nicer, even making them look smaller and making me look thinner and my back doesn't hurt so bad and I even found out that in the summer they carry swimsuits and then maybe I can get a halter top that won't kill my neck or even just something that I can wear half-modestly that actually looks not like a granny bathing suit and I love run-on sentences and I'm sorry for the very personal nature of this paragraph but you have NO IDEA how much happier I am! Unless of course you have the same problem, in which case I would recommend this store - couldn't find it on the net, so you won't have any luck either unless you have a lot more googling skill than I do. It's called Change, and it is a tiny place on W Broadway at Macdonald, and it's the only place I've found that has many styles that pair E or F cups with band sizes smaller than 38 or 40 inches. I'm not huge around; my ribcage is actually small. Which encourages me, in the middle of winter when all I've been doing is eating. I feel much more confident. And more pain-free and less like I'm gonna get caught in the act of pulling up my bra in a very unladylike way.
And now I have something proper to wear under the dress for the banquet. Yessss.
Gotta run; I'm at home after my dad's jazz band played a coffeeshop concert for their cd release party tonight. Now my sister and her friend have arrived and I want to see her and chat. So later.
**Added later: At least because of my sickness I got out of my regular coffee-every-morning rut. And now I don't get headaches later in the day if I haven't had a coffee in the morning. So I'm going to try and keep the morning coffees down... only for treats. Especially because they prolly make me fatter. This will also be good because I'm runnin out of the beans I won. And I'm too cheap to buy good ones like the ones I'm used to now**
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
Date at Dennys
So things are picking up. In that one particular area anyway... amazing how that improves my attitude in regards to grades and such as well. We went to Denny's tonight, after deciding no more fighting... and he was being really sweet and trying to join me in things I like and not only what he likes. So I'll take it while I can, and my resentment is ebbing away.
Had a speaker at church today say something interesting. He was quoting a famous musician, that said, "If I don't practice for one day... I know it. If I don't practice for three days... my critics know it. If I don't practice for a week... everybody knows it!" The pastor related this to our walk with Christ. I'm sure others can tell when we don't take a day, or three, or seven, to sit at His feet and rest a bit. Guilty as charged.
Got a full day tomorrow. I hate group projects, and I dislike organic chemistry... and unfortunately those are both very involved in my day tomorrow. But I will take it with steel in my backbone.
Thanks for the prayers! So surprising to have not spammers in the comments. Some funny pictures I found today:
Had a speaker at church today say something interesting. He was quoting a famous musician, that said, "If I don't practice for one day... I know it. If I don't practice for three days... my critics know it. If I don't practice for a week... everybody knows it!" The pastor related this to our walk with Christ. I'm sure others can tell when we don't take a day, or three, or seven, to sit at His feet and rest a bit. Guilty as charged.
Got a full day tomorrow. I hate group projects, and I dislike organic chemistry... and unfortunately those are both very involved in my day tomorrow. But I will take it with steel in my backbone.
Thanks for the prayers! So surprising to have not spammers in the comments. Some funny pictures I found today:
Friday, November 10, 2006
Still Fighting
Apparently things didn't get fixed up like I thought they were getting. I'm not quite sure how it always manages to be my fault. Life sucks.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Tired and Discouraged
(To a friend in an e-mail):
Interesting development, lately - E got back from her 9 months away, I don't know if you remember. Came back in like August. But September sometime she sent me an e-mail saying she was sorry for everything and she missed my friendship, and would I forgive her for ditching us like that. I haven't seen her any more than usual, but it's been kinda weird cuz she's very purposefully friendly and initiating conversation and contact and stuff.
I still don't get to see hardly any of you from "the hometown" ever, except J cuz he comes to school here, but it's sure nice to know that I was missed. It's kinda hard for me, because I felt so like, betrayed last time, like worthless cuz she could so easily dump our friendship. But I figure I've done dumb things so of course I can forgive her, it just may take a little bit of time to completely open up. Haha, that sounds so sappy, but you know, "once wounded" it's not as easy. Again with the sounding retarded, but you know what I mean.
I'd love to have a bake-off; yes when we have time. Everything extra seems kinda impossible right now, eh? When I'm back in town, even would be best, but that's tough cuz my last exam's on the 19th and right around Christmas things get SO BUSY, for everyone.
How are your weekends doing? I may be coming back saturday afternoon; maybe we could hook up at night? Sunday is a birthday party for R's grandpa that I'm prolly going to. and then I'm back home for schoolwork.
Man, I'm SO DISCOURAGED about school; my grades are SUCKING. My tough chem course? I thought I failed the midterm, but I didn't... 55%, baby. And the craziest thing is, I was SO HAPPY with 55%. [My buddy from high school] got 38%... and he's a smart cookie. But we knew we weren't prepared, and I had an extra half-day to study that he didn't. And only one other course (Bio, thank goodness) is on track for an A, the others are barely B's. Which are not bad, but they're BARELY B's... and one is sociology, which is supposed to be EASY!! I guess I'm just not an arts student. so out of 5 courses, one is barely passing and 3 are not where I feel like they should be, in terms of how easy it feels... It sucks cuz all my good grades were in my first 2 years, and I counted on those keeping up my GPA once the courses got harder. But now I don't have that buffer region, so all my grades here are going to come from my hard courses.
Eek.
R and I had a big massive fight last weekend; just like a big buildup. Kinda the thing where we're both building up resentment about things and then it explodes? I've always tried to not build things up silently, because I feel so sorry for guys when their girlfriend is suddenly mad and they have no idea why. So I've always tried to make sure R knows what I think/feel about things... but then I get into this nagging habit that I kinda notice, but it feels justified cuz he's not living up to my expectations. Which happens, because he's busy and tired as well. And the more I nag, the more he resents that and gets less motivated to fix anything. So I realize I'm nagging, and I stop, but then I let everything build up and get really upset one day, and then he gets upset, and it's just a big mess. It's hard when you're both stressed, to keep finding the fun in each other and the quality core of what you have. I think we're getting better and better at not demanding too much of the other person; I always want him to take me on dates but I'm realizing that he likes it if I take HIM on dates too. Or I have to realize that sometimes dates will be few and far between... which kinda sucks. As a girl, we all want to be taken out in public - like to show that he WANTS to take us out in public, right? But he's more of a quieter guy - if he has been out with friends already a lot in the week, he wants to just sit at home with me. But I want to go out, because to me it doesn't feel draining to go out when it's just us.
Anyway, since you really wanted to hear about all that...
Love you dear, keep in touch. Let me know about how your weekends are playing out lately. Also, any idea what I can write about for a pretty informal sociology paper? I'm supposed to take a situation in my life and analyze it, in terms of roles and identities and typification and ALL those fun concepts. I get a mental block as soon as I know I'm supposed to pick one... any little normal one will work fine but now I can't think of any.
Interesting development, lately - E got back from her 9 months away, I don't know if you remember. Came back in like August. But September sometime she sent me an e-mail saying she was sorry for everything and she missed my friendship, and would I forgive her for ditching us like that. I haven't seen her any more than usual, but it's been kinda weird cuz she's very purposefully friendly and initiating conversation and contact and stuff.
I still don't get to see hardly any of you from "the hometown" ever, except J cuz he comes to school here, but it's sure nice to know that I was missed. It's kinda hard for me, because I felt so like, betrayed last time, like worthless cuz she could so easily dump our friendship. But I figure I've done dumb things so of course I can forgive her, it just may take a little bit of time to completely open up. Haha, that sounds so sappy, but you know, "once wounded" it's not as easy. Again with the sounding retarded, but you know what I mean.
I'd love to have a bake-off; yes when we have time. Everything extra seems kinda impossible right now, eh? When I'm back in town, even would be best, but that's tough cuz my last exam's on the 19th and right around Christmas things get SO BUSY, for everyone.
How are your weekends doing? I may be coming back saturday afternoon; maybe we could hook up at night? Sunday is a birthday party for R's grandpa that I'm prolly going to. and then I'm back home for schoolwork.
Man, I'm SO DISCOURAGED about school; my grades are SUCKING. My tough chem course? I thought I failed the midterm, but I didn't... 55%, baby. And the craziest thing is, I was SO HAPPY with 55%. [My buddy from high school] got 38%... and he's a smart cookie. But we knew we weren't prepared, and I had an extra half-day to study that he didn't. And only one other course (Bio, thank goodness) is on track for an A, the others are barely B's. Which are not bad, but they're BARELY B's... and one is sociology, which is supposed to be EASY!! I guess I'm just not an arts student. so out of 5 courses, one is barely passing and 3 are not where I feel like they should be, in terms of how easy it feels... It sucks cuz all my good grades were in my first 2 years, and I counted on those keeping up my GPA once the courses got harder. But now I don't have that buffer region, so all my grades here are going to come from my hard courses.
Eek.
R and I had a big massive fight last weekend; just like a big buildup. Kinda the thing where we're both building up resentment about things and then it explodes? I've always tried to not build things up silently, because I feel so sorry for guys when their girlfriend is suddenly mad and they have no idea why. So I've always tried to make sure R knows what I think/feel about things... but then I get into this nagging habit that I kinda notice, but it feels justified cuz he's not living up to my expectations. Which happens, because he's busy and tired as well. And the more I nag, the more he resents that and gets less motivated to fix anything. So I realize I'm nagging, and I stop, but then I let everything build up and get really upset one day, and then he gets upset, and it's just a big mess. It's hard when you're both stressed, to keep finding the fun in each other and the quality core of what you have. I think we're getting better and better at not demanding too much of the other person; I always want him to take me on dates but I'm realizing that he likes it if I take HIM on dates too. Or I have to realize that sometimes dates will be few and far between... which kinda sucks. As a girl, we all want to be taken out in public - like to show that he WANTS to take us out in public, right? But he's more of a quieter guy - if he has been out with friends already a lot in the week, he wants to just sit at home with me. But I want to go out, because to me it doesn't feel draining to go out when it's just us.
Anyway, since you really wanted to hear about all that...
Love you dear, keep in touch. Let me know about how your weekends are playing out lately. Also, any idea what I can write about for a pretty informal sociology paper? I'm supposed to take a situation in my life and analyze it, in terms of roles and identities and typification and ALL those fun concepts. I get a mental block as soon as I know I'm supposed to pick one... any little normal one will work fine but now I can't think of any.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Illegal entry
I'm in R's wood building, in the computer lab. I'm totally not allowed to be in here, because I am NOT a wood products processing student. But that is a-ok.
I sat at home almost all day today. It was wonderful. My sleep-in morning of the week.
EXCEPT for the 8 am wrong number phone call. I HATE everybody that phones me looking for "Ayla." It's a new phone, for crying out loud! I was so polite at first but now I just hang up. I even get messages for her... I mean hello, my answering machine message says my name in it. It may sound like many things, but it does not sound like Ayla. I am not Ayla.
*sigh*. Takes up my minutes, which are better spent elsewhere.
Wrote an online quiz, and it crashed, and my benevolent instructor allowed me to write another one. So I had to come to campus. Hence the illegal computer lab.
I have nothing really of interest to write about. I went trick-or-eating last night, and I dressed up as a lumberjack. I had a beard. It was pretty sweet, and apparently convincing. I wore work boots that were 7 sizes too big for me, which was also fun. I love clomping around in big shoes; it's an excuse to make noise and have people laugh at you. Excellent.
Good luck to the NaBloPoMo'ers out there. Nov. 1... only 29 days left to go.
I sat at home almost all day today. It was wonderful. My sleep-in morning of the week.
EXCEPT for the 8 am wrong number phone call. I HATE everybody that phones me looking for "Ayla." It's a new phone, for crying out loud! I was so polite at first but now I just hang up. I even get messages for her... I mean hello, my answering machine message says my name in it. It may sound like many things, but it does not sound like Ayla. I am not Ayla.
*sigh*. Takes up my minutes, which are better spent elsewhere.
Wrote an online quiz, and it crashed, and my benevolent instructor allowed me to write another one. So I had to come to campus. Hence the illegal computer lab.
I have nothing really of interest to write about. I went trick-or-eating last night, and I dressed up as a lumberjack. I had a beard. It was pretty sweet, and apparently convincing. I wore work boots that were 7 sizes too big for me, which was also fun. I love clomping around in big shoes; it's an excuse to make noise and have people laugh at you. Excellent.
Good luck to the NaBloPoMo'ers out there. Nov. 1... only 29 days left to go.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Too late to do homework
Hey so since I have so much spare time. I want to get this up and running. Just 10 minutes every day, I tell myself.
And honestly, I feel so busy, but I do have a decent amount of time. My class schedule seems so slack... but then I go around getting GREAT marks in organic chemistry (sarcasm! I barely passed the midterm, but then over 300 people failed, so it's saying something). And I see all of these things coming up next week... like a paper for bio, and some chem homework due, and a linguistics assignment... but right now it's too early to go to sleep but too late to start something new. Once you finish one thing, it's so much work to get the next one out.
So I finally enabled the title function on this blogger thing, so I can have titles. And I changed the layout (probably temporarily, again) just so that I can see across a decent breadth of the page. Let's throw in a recent picture, for everyone's interest. Let's see...
And honestly, I feel so busy, but I do have a decent amount of time. My class schedule seems so slack... but then I go around getting GREAT marks in organic chemistry (sarcasm! I barely passed the midterm, but then over 300 people failed, so it's saying something). And I see all of these things coming up next week... like a paper for bio, and some chem homework due, and a linguistics assignment... but right now it's too early to go to sleep but too late to start something new. Once you finish one thing, it's so much work to get the next one out.
So I finally enabled the title function on this blogger thing, so I can have titles. And I changed the layout (probably temporarily, again) just so that I can see across a decent breadth of the page. Let's throw in a recent picture, for everyone's interest. Let's see...
My sister came to visit this weekend (finally)! I've been hoping to get her up to visit sometime, but now that she has a job it's been harder. Plus, I go to my hometown pretty much every weekend. So we had a great time - watched a movie, tickle-fought all night, went shopping the next day... no homework.
And we visited R at school, and went to ... dun dun dun... the infamous Wreck Beach. R went first to make sure there wasn't anyone out there that could blind us... but it was a windy day so we were alone. The view was beautiful. We saw a bunch of seals. I took lots of pictures, randomly; R has no idea this was taken of him. It's a really nice beach. No fair the nudists get it.
So I'm kinda tired... but not tired enough to sleep. Tomorrow is a long day, and I'm going trick-or-eating at night. That's where we accept canned foods for charity, instead of candy.It's Halloween, but I really don't care. Lots of crazy people dress up on Granville; it's totally fun to see. R and I went out with his roommate Saturday night, and I felt out of place without a costume. So last-minute thinking (not my own thoughts) produced the idea of the lumberjack. Thanks to R, and his boots, gloves, lumberjack coat, and hard hat, it could go off pretty well. And I'll be super warm.
I'm going to make a between-classes trip to a dollar store and a secondhand store, to look for suspenders and/or a plastic wood-cutting device. Just so I don't have to keep telling people what I am.
R is going to the Canucks game. We are also hopefully going on a date this Friday, if all goes well. That's worth putting on the calendar.
Peace
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
All settled in
So it gets to be R's birthday (boy look at that good-lookin 20-year-old on the right there, eh? Barely in the picture). This is his party, his roommates and a couple old friends from high school. They made 2 massive pots of kraft dinner (what a surprise) and drank some beer. All in all a good birthday party.In keeping with the theme, I somehow managed to add to the beer-ness of the night in my desire to get R a cake. I bused out to kits, arrived at Diary Queen hoping to be able to bring the cake back without it melting (and hoping it'd be a reasonable price). What did I find?? First one I looked at, I knew it was for Rich. When I was buying it, the guy asked me if I wanted stuff written on it! For free!! What service.
Hence:
It was a hit. Ice cream cake can never go wrong.
So we've been settling into life out here pretty well. It's been busy at points, in the middle of midterms right now. Due to my class choice (or lack thereof), I'm taking a first-year course online. This leaves me with Wednesday entirely free of classes, and Mondays and Fridays I'm only in class for an hour. Tuesdays and thursdays are pretty intense, but I'm not feeling overwhelmed at all because of these free days. Wednesday, of course, is "homework day," which means I clean my house and procrastinate and write and read blogs. And listen to music, and study off and on. I have cable now, too, so tv is tempting. Rich has a much busier class schedule, due to his labs etc., but since he spends so much less time outside of class doing his work, we've been seeing each other decently enough.
I really haven't buckled down yet... had a midterm but I think it went well, so I have false confidence. All except for organic chemistry, where I have such a knot of dread in my stomach that I can't even study. 2 midterms next week. Been going home pretty much every weekend for something or other, church or birthdays or thanksgiving.
Food was good! Pumpkin pie is awesome.
My house is so comfy; I love having my own space. My bathroom is awesome because it's my own. Unfortunately (and unexpectedly) it is pink-themed! Never thought it would come to this.
I suck at blogging. Anyway, these are some bathroom pictures. The sunlight is SO nice today. We have had the most wonderful weather; have only had to walk in the rain once since I've moved out here. It's getting chilly, but the streets are beautiful. First started my walks to the bus at 7 a.m. saying, "Wow, what a beautiful sunrise!" And now I say, "Wow, that's a nice full moon." Always surprises me, every year, how quickly it begins to darken.
Went tanning today, so I'm not so worried about the lack of endorphins. Vitamin D all the way! I got a coupon, so I figured it'd be free... but given that our society never gives anything for free, I had to pay for eyewear and also for lotion because apparently mine was inappropriate, as it would clog up the acrylic material of the tanning beds?? Does that sound like a hoax? So I ignored the "cheap" $44.50 bottle, and got a sampler one that should last me for as long as my free tans last. It was sure nice to sleep in today and then just take a bus ride in the sun.
My house, and some of the wonderful sunlight I see on my way to or from the bus stop (when it's not dark).
I'm gonna write more later, just randomly. This is a good way to procrastinate. I should get back to the studying, seeing as this is my only chance for a while.
Tomorrow is classes all day, then an info session about Biology co-op. Friday I'm taking R out (after my class) as a remnant of his birthday, but ALSO to celebrate our 1.5 years of dating. A year and a half, already! We're going to head to Capilano Suspension Bridge, and the treetop adventure. To do that, we have to take the seabus - a new and wonderful experience for R, which is why I chose it, of course. Then home Friday night to practice and do worship Sunday, then back up to study for Tuesday's 2 midterms.
The worst part (and the best) is that I'm reading an AWESOME book - Mansfield Park, by Jane Austen. I love classic novels, I just wish I'd started it after midterms.
Peace out
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